Haven't forgotten!

I just wanted to tell you all I haven't forgotten you! I have been occupied with a little project of mine lately. That and I am trying to figure out which post I want to do next. lol suggestions are always welcome. Please inbox me any ideas or questions you have. ( onlycauseyourecurious@yahoo.com ) Knowing who is reading and what you want is very helpful. This blog is not just for me. I made it for you.

I did want to bring something up while I'm here.

I don't know if I am the only one and who else is this confused. I was always raised to be a strong independent women and take care of myelf, while watching my mother be a stay at home mother who doted on my father's and our, every need. My mother is amazing. She is always putting herself last to make others happy and comfortable. She is very much so a domestic submissive in all senses of the word. She may be the one who runs the household, but she does it with not one thought of her needs till everyone else is happy.
Being raised seeing this every day then being told I can be and do anything I want was very confusing for me as a child. I was always so confused about what I wanted to be and where I wanted to go when I grew up. One minute I wanted to be a truck driver like Daddy. The next I can't wait to be a mommy and have my own family to take care of. The question is where is the balance? Do you think that what we were raised with impacts us as Dom/sub or in other parts of our lives, like will we work or stay at home? I have no doubt in my mind I want to be my mother some day. You can't imagine how much I adore her. She is the most amazing women I have ever known. It takes a lot to be and do what she is. She is stronger than I ever think I can be. As much as my Mommy told me to be anything and do anything I wanted when I grew up and I wasn't limited to anything just because I am a women, I can't wait to be a stay at home mom and housewife and hopefully make her proud of my house and family.
I will not lie and say I have strong feelings of where I think men and women should be. I will also not say that those strong feelings are sometimes wrong. Yes I do feel women should be at home doing what they were built to do, physically, mentally, and emotionally. This is not to say I will not support those who wish to work or wish not to have children. Women are built for breeding, caring, understanding, paying attention to details that others find silly. I have always been more comfortable with the idea of stay at home mothers and housewives than I have stay at home fathers and househusbands.  I am a little old school in that nature. I don't like sissy skinny boys who don't know how to pull their weight and instead of caring for and providing for their family, bitch and wine about nothing of importance.
The world may be evolving and creating different acceptable roles for both sexes, but I don't necessarily agree with them. I do think that if a women decides to go to work she should be given the same respect and opportunity as a man. I also don't think women should be doing any other work than taking care of their families. Not only was this confusing as a child, but it is confusing now. I feel like a failure since I do not have a career, have not gone to school, and to to pit off do not have the family I want. There is a hard line to walk when you want to grow up to be a mommy and others are growing up to be teachers, or doctors. I know so many people I went to school with that are now working in their dream fields, and I am still hunting down the provider of my dream career. I can't do it alone! lol I want to go back to school and study human behavior, human sexuality, and psychology. My dilemma, what happens when I get the dream job I want? What happens when I start a family and am that stay at home mommy and housewife? Will I ever get to use the skills I learned? Will I have wasted this time to learn something that will not actually help in my chosen field? I am afraid to waste the time, money, and effort to learn something I may never use again. You know they don't have classes on how to make a pot roast and clean the house before your husband gets home from work. If I could take classes on how to be an amazing mother and housewife, well hell sign me up!
Things were so much easier for the housewife and mother in the early days. Now it is harder and harder to be a housewife and mother than ever. We are a dying breed. There are more stay at home fathers than anything. With all the changes in feminism you would think the activists would not forget those who don't want it to change. I am a dying breed, a forgot gem, an out of date mind. I am discriminated against now. Thank you feminist movement for completely alienating those who still listen to the natural instincts they were created with and wanting to be the women they have always been meant to be.

I just wish the world could remember when women were strong, not because they can work in factories, but because they can hold one child on their hip while cooking dinner and doing dishes with the other hand and helping another child study for a math test while yelling and another child for running in the house. All while having to deal with a husband who works all the time, barely being able to pay the bills, getting lonely when you are stuck at home all day, and not bitching to upset your husband who works just s hard as you do. These are the women who deserve their own icon of strength not just the women who had to work during the wars to feed their families.

Just feeling a little forgotten in society. My thank you to all the mothers who actually are mothers. To all the housewives who actually are housewives. To every women who has not forgotten what her body was built to do. To those men who understand, love, respect, and need those women. Thank you to those who have not forgotten that when you are told you can grow up to be anything you want that this should not mean you can not simply be a mother and a housewife.